I Still Have Anxiety — My Loud Whispers of Hope

FROM LOU: Please check this post out; it's very poignant and compelling... Good stuff for sure. I had severe painful anxiety and panic attacks in my early twenties (thirty years ago) and have had anxiety off and on ever since increasing in severity after my postpartum depression and bipolar diagnosis and the start of being …

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POETRY: Valium Obsession

Swallowing little blue pills by the milligram, taking just enough so you don’t give a damn, it stops the anger and it brings the calm, life is what it is and I am what I am.  No standing in line for my prescription, rudimentary methods to fulfil my addiction, from India to Pakistan or straight …

I am a Klonopin (Clonazepam) Lab Rat — My Loud Whispers of Hope

Think about how scientists determine whether medications are safe before they are manufactured. Most of the time they use lab rats, guinea pigs or mice to determine the safety, adverse reactions, side effects and effectiveness of medications and other things.  After giving these poor animals certain doses of medications over time they study their behaviors …

ENTRY: Figuring out my own grief, placing spotlight on homemade “liquid benzos”

Right now, I am attempting to process my thoughts, general feelings, and spiritual inclinations, if you will.  And, as you might imagine, I'm trying to do that without foreign substances.  It has been an extremely difficult, trying week. As some of the readers on here might know, I work at a treatment center in greater …

Managed-Alcohol Programs in Canada… A new take on MAT, but perhaps a good one

In a converted hotel in the west of the city of Ottawa, a quiet, orderly queue snakes around the reception area. The men and women are mostly middle-aged or older. Some of them use sticks, walkers or wheelchairs, their health fragile after a lifetime of booze. But it is their hands that stand out - …